I love being alone

[riverfox]

Today, my back was hurting after a session at the dentist on Wednesday. I didn't want to go to the store so I'd told my VA rep to let the lady who'd take me that I wasn't going anywhere. In this pain mode I'm in, I can't do any side to side looking, like one does at the grocery store, b/c it will set off my muscle spasms in my neck and back. But unfortunately, the lady taking me, Lisa, didn't get the message not to drop by to pick me up. She showed up rather late--3pm instead of 12 noon--and she showed up with an entourage of people who wanted to see me and see my apartment. Five people. Five.

*facepalm*

They stayed for 15 minutes and then had to leave. A. My back. B. I have a no-company apartment, meaning it's an efficiency apt with no places for people to sit. One person for company and they won't be all that comfortable. There's my bed/couch (it's not a sofa bed) and my computer chair. I also don't have anything to offer people to drink. No big coffee maker, just ice and water and four glasses.

I was invariably asked if I'm lonely, do I have a boyfriend, and am I looking for another place to live so I can have friends over.

No. No. And NO.

And when I said no, two of these women said, "But don't you want to get married?"

F.u.c.k. N.O.

Aside from me being rather a loner anyway, this apartment is the first time in my 50+ years that I've been able to live alone. A-Lone. Just me and my kitty (who stayed under the sofa for the entire time the company was here). I don't want a roommate, I sure as shit don't want a boyfriend. I am enjoying my alone-time. I love having my BFF, and wish she could visit (waves at Chris) or that I could visit (she lives in the UK), but that's about as far as I go on the comfort scale.

What the hell is it with women who are brainwashed into this "must have a boyfriend/husband to feel comfortable and not alone" shit?

When I'm 70, ask me again if I'm lonely, but I think I need another 50 years living by myself before I'll be comfortable sharing my life again. FCOL.

Comments

[discodiva76]

Each to their own hon....I never understand why people cannot live and let live with others' lifestyle preferences.....the looks I get when I tell them that I chose to stay at home and look after my son & hubby rather than continue to pursue my career ranges from complete pity to scathing scorn.....I'm considered a brain-dead moron for my choice by many.....I'm rather proud of what I've done especially as most people wouldn't have lasted 1 month looking after a disabled spouse with an attitude problem *winks*..that's not to say that I am perfectly capable of living on my own and looking after myself too...


We make our choices for ourselves sometimes out of necessity but never denigrate those who make them out of their own volition I say.....


So glad that you and Chris have such a great friendship.....I <3 fandom for what it does for us sometimes


xoxoxoxo

[riverfox]

Fandom is the reason, or rather, internet access to fandom, is the reason I have my friendships and my BFF, Chris. Took me 13 years in fandom to find her and it's worth the wait. :):):) I never take my friendships for granted, although they do get tested from time to time. ;)

It's weird how you get judged these days. Once, being a stay at home mom was the only choice you had. People who judge these days need to understand just how fucked up women's lives were over 30 years ago, and in some places, they still are. Those who judge need to understand that the operative word for your life is *choice*. You chose to stay home instead of treading the waters of misogyny.

[freyasboy]

*waves back*

I wish we could visit too.

Love and big hugs
Chris xx

[riverfox]

*loves*